Some thoughts that I get from watching TV advertisements.

Advertisements of TV. They show you a High Definition TV. The image on it looks really clear. But wait... that images comes from your TV!! So if a High Definition TV image looks so good on your TV that you actually want to buy it... then you already have a very good TV, and you don't need a new one!

Milo advertisement. "You have dived one thousand times, now you will dive like never before. With the new formula powered by MORE MILK, MORE MALT, with the same GREAT CHOCOLATY TASTE, Nestle Milo brings out the champion in you."

If what you want to be is a champion, how does the chocolaty taste actually matter?

Another random thing, when I went to Woodlands library, I went to look for the toilet, following the toilet sign. But when I entered the door with a toilet sign outside, when I went in, it was a long corridor with a door at the end. Naturally, I went out to check if I saw the sign wrongly. Then a stranger walked out towards me from the corridor, and seeing me looking for the sign, casually remarked, "It's in there."

It was an interesting feeling then, rather strange and warm at the same time. Strange that he knew what I was thinking from the way I acted. Warm that he bothered to make a remark rather than giggling away.
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Happy things first.

I only need 11 more marks to get an S grade for Physics!

The structure of aluminum chloride reminds me of 69.

Today was the most shiok Bridging session I've had! In that session I played a 1 no-trump and a 1 yellow game each, because everyone had lousy cards, and won both! Played another 4 yellow game, and won with continuous feeding, eating and out-trumping with the entire game under control. SHIOK! I think most of the fun comes from winning with lousy cards. And Furen learnt how to play bridge in less than 1 hour. Smart! But he quite suay get lousy cards; no beginner's luck. (Unlike my first bridge game, where I had 3 aces and 5 hearts, and I bid 3 hearts and won.) Of course, I must claim some credit, along with kinwai, on teaching him how to play bridge.

But the part that made me feel good about myself was, there was one part when I got good cards, and I let him play "because I want [him] to have the joy of winning". I'm not sure if he won that game. I think he did. But damn, that made my day. He seems to be quite interested in bridge now, cos he was talking about it even after we stopped playing.

Sometimes I think that there is net happiness that comes out of playing bridge. Just like many things in life, there are some elements that can be controlled, some elements that can't be controlled. Therefore whenever you lose, you think "nah, I did everything right, it couldn't be helped" but when you WIN, you think "OH MAN EVERYTHING WORKED OUT RIGHT AT THE END DAMN I'M GOOD". Chances are, you won't lose every single game, so bridge should turn out to be quite an enjoyable experience.

Sarge placed his UNO cards into a box that resembles a box of condoms, but actually it contained sunblock. I like the naughty descriptions. (To think that in the Shakespearean times, "naughty" connotes evil intent. Just imagine a pastor who travels from the Shakespearean times to the present to preach to homosexuals.)

Received a lot of criticisms for my IS. I thank my classmates, especially Shin Jung and Zilin, who gave the most constructive ones. (There were also many others who helped too, but if I list everyone here then "especially" would lose its meaning) I think I chose something quite challenging. But never mind, it was quite fun finding sources to back up a heretical stand. When I stepped up to the board, I wasn't so confident of my stand, but after the session, the direction to take was illuminated.

(Random discovery: if you do spelling correction for the word "Zilin" on blogger, "smiling" turns up as the first alternative.)

I'm very happy to meet the class after so long. It feels strange coming out of me, but I did miss some of my schoolmates.
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Now for not so happy things.

Bad CT results, though I shouldn't have expected anything much considering the amount of effort I put in. I guess I was too conceited.

I don't have the drive that I had in JC 1. But I think the source of the drive was partly emotional. Lacking the emotional source of drive, I'm now feeling quite tired of studying. I know, I must study, but at this point in time I feel like the path ahead is predetermined to be boring and tiring. I might get into some mischief in the near future, just for the fun of it.

The way I think now is very different. At any point in time, I don't remember much about the past. I respond to stimuli spontaneously, and hardly any thinking goes through. Last time, whenever I do or say anything, I felt like my mind was reading off a script somewhere, but now I just talk or act without thinking. I just follow instinct. Perhaps that's why I don't really keep track of what people do or say. In fact, I probably pay more attention to what is said by in-game characters than what is said by real people.

Despite almost 2 years in JC, I'm still shy around girls. When I entered JC, when Mr Hodge briefed all of us, I had hoped it would get better. It hasn't gotten much better, and I don't reckon a miracle will take place in the span of 2 months of dreary school life. I think I mature slow.

I think the reason why suicide is wrong is because those who make the choice never get to present their case. No, I'm not contemplating suicide, even though I'm slightly depressed. Don't worry about me, in case you do.

Most who contemplate suicide don't die anyway.
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Hmm, causes of sadness = causes of happiness. I must feeling quite... balanced.