i am sad. just found out tt i wasn't so good at the only thing i thought i was good at. What's next?

spent much effort... with much interest and commitment... with lousy results...

sigh.

guess geppers are called gifted for a reason.

on a side note i built a hand-held rocket launcher which works. from the middle of the classroom, i did a dry launch on a 1.5 litre bottle at the noticeboard made of soft cork, 50 psi. bounced off noticeboard, bounced off ceiling, bounced off whiteboard, landed in front of me. all these happened in less than a second.

i could remember that when i brought the launcher to school nobody cared. When i started pumping nobody cared. when i told people to go away from the line of fire nobody cared. when i pointed the launcher forward the guy in the line of fire strolled away, while i was shouting frantically at him to clear. Then when i fired, everyone on the classroom was scared shitless and asked for encore. The bottle had a dent* in it. (*note: understatement)

after which i lent it to a guy to play with.

and i almost killed a bird with it. intentionally. man... if i had REALLY killed it i'd probably be feeling really guilty... but then again whether it died or not is merely the outcome, all it would take is probably 5 degrees to the right and it would have died... fact remains that i tried to kill something innocent for the fun of it... the evil in my heart needs to be purged.

on yet another sidenote, i have spent more than $80 on launchers by now. i am confident that the fourth one would be even better.