I wonder if I think.

Whenever I seem to be thinking, I am more like talking to myself in my head.

Tell me, what goes in your mind when you see

1 + 2 = 4 ?

In my case, nothing. It just seems wrong. I don't have think that the answer is 3 before it looks wrong to me. If you ask me if it is wrong I'll say it is wrong. If you ask me why, frankly speaking it just feels wrong. (But of course if marks are given I'll say that the answer is 3. Or if it is some challenging problem in H3 Basic Math I'll give up.)

But if you are like me, you look at the expression and nothing goes through your mind other than the gut feeling it looks wrong, then I shall continue. If not, tag that this is wrong.

So it seems that the "thinking" process that led to the conclusion that 1 + 2 is not 4 is subconscious. I am not aware of the reason why I feel that 1 + 2 is not 4.

How about 254 + 549 = 803 ?

Now in my case, this isn't just a gut feeling. In my case, I do not immediately feel that 254 + 549 is 803. Now I do "see" some numbers popping up here and there as I think. I am aware of this happening. I am aware that I am adding up 9 and 4 first to see if the unit digit is 3. Does that constitute thinking? It seems that I just had a gut feeling that I should add up the last digit first. I was taught that in primary school. Now, this teaching has become a gut feeling.

Now it seems to me that I have been taking it for granted that when I look at some problems the answer appears. Apparently it isn't due to any merit of my own. It is a gut feeling. I cannot explain it. Perhaps this gut feeling gets enhanced by practice. With enough practice gut feeling becomes faster and more accurate than thinking. Just like I cannot understand how others feeling, I wouldn't be able to understand how Jin Wei can look at the maths problem and see the answer.

Really! In his tutorials, questions that demand numerical answers only have a numerical answer next to it. When I ask him how he did it he would scratch and tilt his head and say, "You just... see lah." or "It's just... like that lah!"

Perhaps certain forms of thinking is not conscious. Perhaps, when I say I think, I just feel, or I am just talking to myself in my head. Perhaps, thinking is just an inner sensation.

Okay, this is weak, but another point to note is that "I think that Alwyn is gay." means almost the same thing as "I feel that Alwyn is gay."