man orientation ends liddat... sigh.

somehow i have this feeling that i have rarely had before. some sorta sense of belonging to a group. the last time i had this feeling was after NUS-X games, where the team of four spent 3 days building a car, a top and a quite a few bridges for a competition. On the day before competition, we worked on these from 11am to 9++pm and even elango gave us suggestions on how to improve our designs. it was still not finished and we all had to go home. when we reached home we immediately signed in on msn and discussed further and split the work, then we reported on our progress until 2 am. next morning before competition we went to the competition grounds early to test our designs and also to discuss strategies. ri sent two teams, my team and the other team won first and second respectively. our team nearly got a grand slam. after the competition, it was all back to studies and other cca.

perhaps that doesn't sound as exciting as j1 orientation. but then i feel that that competition gave the closest feeling i have to what i am feeling now. it feels like an exciting contrast to what i do all the time, a different kind of joy from what i get from playing games or reading. it feels as though a void in me i never discovered before had been filled up, and now it is draining away.

i haven't found myself fitting into any other group as well as science club. those people are however always busy. my OG is a fun OG, but there isn't much for me to do or say in the group when we just sit together with nothing to do.

perhaps orientation hasn't ended. but it will and must end sometime, before we all go back to mugging. i think i would remember it.