there are so many general interests out there that teenagers are more familiar with. Things like music, gossip, current affairs, games and sports are some of the things that most teenagers would talk about. I am, however, unfamiliar with them.

I find it difficult to mix with many people. What people would be interested in talking about, i probably would not understand, and what i am interested in, others are not interested. From strangers to friends, the only route is communication. There aren't many such routes from me to many people, thus i have few, or no friends.

For that, i used to think that i belong to a superior class, i could continue with my pursuits, my passion for learning, while others of my age can continue with their daily meaningless musings, and surpass them by great margins eventually.

How wrong i was. it came the time when i realised that i wasn't as good as i thought i was. losing several competitions, i had to wake up from my dream. people are progressing so fast that i had actually spent so much of my time wandering in my dream world. and i started to feel lonely.

There aren't any whom i can just pop in and say "hi" and start talking cock. It would probably start with "hey why are you here, you're supposed to be doing something else". I dunno, maybe that is how friends greet each other? i wouldn't know.

i was lonely. i started playing games so that i have something to talk about. i know they are not good. i can stop whenever i want, there isn't a lot of attachment between me and games.needless to say, i wouldn't be good at it, so most surpass e so much that they are sick of explaining just the acronyms.

music is quite a waste of time. time to "chatability" ratio is very low.

current affairs... not interested.

sports... weird way to start.

so lonely. i want to sleep.