quote of the day: "Xin Yang stop drawing gonads." ng kia boon, a horny sec 2 gymnast, when i was drawing a klein bottle.

lesson of the day: sleep is a luxury for students. not for sportsmen.

screwed up some stuff. screwing up things is not good. argh.

i have a screwed up project. and it is individual, so no one to blame.
i have a screwed up academic year ahead. tons of unfinished homework, tons of things to mug, and every piece of fucking work will be counted. seems that i didn't have this problem in sec 2.
i have a screwed up science knowledge. 5 secs one beat my prelims score(which i did in sec2). and i thought this year's questions were harder.
i have screwed up judo. jimr can elaborate.
i have a screwed up body. everyone is stronger than me.
i have a screwed up memory. everyone has better memory and ability to understand things than me. sigh...my IQ sux lah.
i have a screwed up primary school life. no matter how i look back it just seems so damn wasted. like why we have a big topic called "solving problem sums" that involves 6 months of practice when they can just teach us algebra. which IMO is much simpler than drawing models and ratio and cross multiplication. chinamen rox.

sigh... i am so screwed up. never experienced this problem before. i noe many ppl are coping well with 4 managerial positions in 4 ccas(like ali), but i am at quite a loss. i don't want to look back some years later and say, "sigh...why didn't i do this..." seriously i need to balance judo, studies, and mugging(my favourite). i seriously feel like neglecting my studies to study(literally)... not that i am contemplating on quitting school...

screw lah. Who said rp provides learning at your own pace. you take your time to learn u screw up your first semester homework you are screwed for the rest of the year man. the spirit of RP is to mug 12/7 in november and december so that you understand everything first then do homework. which are in the first place supposed to help. hey, i don't mind rp. just give us less homework. certain departments are taking advantage of RP.

sigh. my life is so screwed up.

argh... i want to study... i like to study... but homework is preventing me from doing so... and they are supposedly part of studies...

crap lah. repeat sec three then repeat lah. it might even put me at an advantage.

homework is our common enemy. it is the counter-force of joy ; the end to free time ; the gaoler keeping us within the syllabus ; the hindrance of study. i protest against the great focus on the immoral cause; the drain of school resources: homework.

i shall live through this year in a fu1 yan3 se4 ze2 attitude. what if i get kicked out of RP? could mean the end of a smooth road to university. homework are the pebbles to prevent me from falling from the smooth road. but i think i have skiis.